This is really intriguing, painful and hot, but in a stripped-raw, ripping-the-scab-off way. It's frightening. I love the way you've gone so way-off with the AU idea, it really brings an interesting dimension to it. I don't think this is by trinityofone - it just doesn't feel like her, although it's her kind of story - I'm guessing valderys. But whoever you are, this is fantastic.